Like the rising tide.♡

Seeing the world through blinders.

I fucking hate this family.
They run off such an outdated, ignorant way of seeing the world and will always refuse to understand anything outside of their own selfish perceptions based on superstition, old culture, and a closed mindset. 

Get the fuck over yourselves. Always first to argue that they’re right, step on people and lie to get what they want, cover the truth with exaggerations to control people. Oh, while clamoring to claim each one of them is more moral/good/faithful.

I hate that. I know there are religious people out there who are honest, good people, but it’s not helping my understanding when most use God as an excuse to lie to others, use it as a political device, use it to belittle other people, use it to harm others pretending that it’s “what God wants”, use it to judge, disregard, hate, torture, kill, other people.

I don’t care that my family was so controlling and deceiving and outright harmful in what they say and how they pretend to “love” each other as a family. I don’t care anymore. What I do care and abhor is that they use this false moral image and arrogant view of themselves and how others ‘should’ be in order to hurt others, knock down feelings, ignore the truth.

I just wish they were good people. I fear that being part of this family will taint my honest wishes to end up a good person, regardless of fear of hell or what others think of me. I am terrified I’ll end up another selfish person who will only lie and scream at others to get my way, and not be able to appreciate others. They don’t fucking care about being a ‘family’, in the most sociopathic way.