So the ball is rolling so to speak, and starting a new mural in town next week.
I’m so nervous… Of it not coming out awesome enough, you know?
Too awesome.
Too, too awesome.
…I need to see it again ASAP. And catch up in terms of the comics.
I need to make a Domokun clip.
IT JUST HIT ME. I HAVE THE FELT FOR IT.
really kicking it into overdrive to get my etsy set up right now.
Time to kick my ass in gear and produce a lot more art.
I need to get out of that lazy mindset; i’ve had a week and a half since school got out, and I need to really start doing something more productive. Being depressed shouldn’t stop me.
On an unrelated note: I am so glad Jason was chosen for Androgenetics. ^_^ !!
That is really all.♡
There must be something wrong.
My life’s alright. Straight A’s. Constantly picking up new projects. Making art, reading books, taking jobs.
Technically, that counts as being ‘self-motivated’ and ‘responsible’, but in reality, I’m just. Fucking. Restless.
I’m bored. Life is exactly the same every day. Same routine, same conversations, same people, same issues. Same people complaining about the same shit in their same lives.
Normalcy, mundane, predictable.
I need to get the fuck away from it all. I need adventure, change, I feel like the cycle is hindering my creative growth and mental health (my family is batshit.) I can’t bring up this issue because 1. either people dont’ understand what the fuck I’m saying, or 2. they don’t know what to do and shrug me off. I can’t tell if I’ve been depressed and have been distracting myself this whole time, or if it’s just a long, long phase.
My question is: if you had the chance to totally scrap your life and start over, no matter how good you had it and leave everyone behind, would you? My answer is clear.
edit: yes, I am actively trying to change it. All my art/ job profits go towards my independence, essentially. It’s just the in-between time of SSDD that kills me.
Fuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck.
Well, it shouldn’t be that bad, right? Just an art history final today, a giant social psychology final Wednesday, and then I’m free.
In other news… Got the approval of the mural! I will post pics throughout the summer as it gets complete. Otherwise, I still need to photograph some of the sculptures I got back from class, and doodling has been quite the habit as of late.
I enjoy having like, a billion projects to do at once - it’s just the stress I need to keep down.
hope you all are doing okay~
x
Where have you been all my life?
Perfect music for a good morning.♡
